Does anyone else struggle to keep their word, not only to others but themselves?
As I continue my journey of self discovery, sometimes what I uncover can be hard to face. But I know true and lasting change can’t begin until I start being honest about some of my most destructive habits.
I can trace so much of my anxiety, depression and stress directly to not doing what I commit to, not following through, or in some cases not planning ahead. (Because planning ahead requires keeping commitments)
Why do we continue to do things that cause us so much pain, embarrassment and shame?
For me, I think low self-esteem and perfectionist tendencies led me to constantly second guess everything I did. This eventually led to serious burnout, and now I struggle to believe I can do things without literally driving myself crazy.
I’m working to rewire my thinking about my capabilities by setting small tasks to accomplish each day. For now, my only goal is to make sure I complete those tasks.
We tend to load up our calendars and to do lists so we can accomplish more. That might be great down the line, but if you struggle to keep your commitments now, a large list can be daunting, no matter how small the tasks. Starting with one or two items can give you some much needed ‘wins’ and the motivation to keep the ‘completion’ streak going.
Again, the goal right now is not how much you can get done, but to train your brain to trust that it will do the things you set out to do.
This is one area I’m excited to work on. It has cost me dearly in life. While it’s humbling and sometimes painful and uncomfortable to change, I know the pain of staying the same is far worse.
If you’re striving to make changes in your life, too, I applaud you. This is some of the most important work we can do.
I hope you have a wonderful weekend.